Things are flowing full stream now and I think everything is on track and good to go. We are really getting excited.
Today Kyle went to Seattle for work, so this is shot number two that I had to give myself. It was really scary. I was nervous i wasn't goign to give myself the right amount, couldn't get the air out of the syringe and was just overwhelmed in all, but it was pretty painless and I got through it, with Kyle on the phone walking me through step by step.
Thursday we head to St Louis and Friday we start the ultra sounds and blood work and monitoring to help gaurantee they do the procedure at the right timing. We also start the stimulation shots Friday. Things are moving along quickly. Five more weeks and we will know if this procedure worked.
Sunday, September 7, 2008
Thursday, September 4, 2008
True Answer to Prayer
Friday I started the shots. Monday was the last day of birth control. Was informed that if I do not start my period by this Friday (tomorrow, September 5) we would not be able to move forward with the IVF procedure. The entire thing would be canceled, the three months of birth control and sweat and worry and excitement would all have to be done again. As you can imagine, Kyle and I have been a complete wreck. I have had menstrual cramping, but no spotting. We have not stopped praying. I have done everything from trying to eat different things to kick start it, to jumping in place. I know it is silly, but we are that desperate to get this thing started.
This morning I woke up and said one more prayer before going the bathroom and THANK YOU, JESUS, there were the beginning signs of my cycle. Though I know it is not thick enough probably for them to consider moving forward, I was nearly in tears that God is ONCE AGAIN providing.
Just now came out of the bathroom and things are getting a little heavier. I am so grateful to God. I can't believe that in a week from tomorrow I will start the stimulation drugs and in three weeks from yesterday they will plan to retrieve my eggs, fertilize them, and assist in us starting a family. I can do nothing but cry right now as we are so close to the possibility to having children. Thank You Jesus, Thank You!!!
This morning I woke up and said one more prayer before going the bathroom and THANK YOU, JESUS, there were the beginning signs of my cycle. Though I know it is not thick enough probably for them to consider moving forward, I was nearly in tears that God is ONCE AGAIN providing.
Just now came out of the bathroom and things are getting a little heavier. I am so grateful to God. I can't believe that in a week from tomorrow I will start the stimulation drugs and in three weeks from yesterday they will plan to retrieve my eggs, fertilize them, and assist in us starting a family. I can do nothing but cry right now as we are so close to the possibility to having children. Thank You Jesus, Thank You!!!
Sunday, August 31, 2008
First of the Shots
Friday we did the first shot. It is Lupron to help prevent ovulation. I was really nervous and scared i would do it wrong, or that the pain would be too great. Kyle was great though and helped me prepare the dosage and walked me through what I needed to do and was really encouraging. It stung a little when it first went in, but everything ran smoothly and once done the sting was a bit more intense but tolerable. There was a small red rash around the injection area, but it went away about an hour later.
Yesterday was shot number two and it was great. didn't hurt at all, until after the shot was done and then there was a bit of a sting, but it was even more tolerable then the shot on Friday. I did wake up this morning with the injection area being rather tender though and I have pretty intense stomach cramping. I am not sure if it is just my ovaries blocking from ovulation or what, but it is hurting at about a scale of 6.
Today we are just taking it easy. I have decided not to go to Kyle's parent's house (we go every Sunday) and to just lay around to hopefully stop or decrease the pain.
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Starting the Shots
So this is the week it all begins. This process is becoming more of a reality and I am nervous yet excited. I truly believe that IVF will be the answer but only God knows if this is part of his plan in the end. So until then we will have to learn to patiently wait.
Two weeks ago we went to St Louis to learn how to give the shots. Seems like it will not be too hard, but there are a lot of shots to take and it will be a learning process. We had to give trial shots. One in my stomach I gave myself. It was very small and felt like a bee sting. Slightly painful, but very tolerable. One in my lower back was from Kyle. It was intense waiting for him to stick me, but once he did, it was fine. Bit more painful than the tummy shot, but seems like something i can handle. I did notice that I had a small bruise and a bit of pain where the back shot was two days after the shot. That makes me a little scared of the daily back shot for 8 weeks (start the day of egg removal) but will do whatever it takes. I just want the opportunity to be a mom.
So, Friday is the big Day...we start the shots. August 29, 2008 is the true beginning of this process.
Two weeks ago we went to St Louis to learn how to give the shots. Seems like it will not be too hard, but there are a lot of shots to take and it will be a learning process. We had to give trial shots. One in my stomach I gave myself. It was very small and felt like a bee sting. Slightly painful, but very tolerable. One in my lower back was from Kyle. It was intense waiting for him to stick me, but once he did, it was fine. Bit more painful than the tummy shot, but seems like something i can handle. I did notice that I had a small bruise and a bit of pain where the back shot was two days after the shot. That makes me a little scared of the daily back shot for 8 weeks (start the day of egg removal) but will do whatever it takes. I just want the opportunity to be a mom.
So, Friday is the big Day...we start the shots. August 29, 2008 is the true beginning of this process.
Monday, August 11, 2008
Dr Derosa
Friday we went to St Louis (fourth trip now) and met the OB that will be assisting Dr Silber in the IVF procedure. He was an hour later due to three deliveries that day, but his staff was extremely apologetic and that makes a world of difference.
Dr Derosa is very confident to the point he almost comes across arrogant, but it was comforting knowing he is on the team, as it did reassure us that we have pretty high chances at success through IVF. At the same time, he was so confident that if this procedure does not work, I will be very disappointed and suprised at the failure.
Today met with my OB for the required Pap Smear before our procedure. I love Dr Stamps. He is so gentle, caring and encouraging. He takes the time to get to know the patient and shows true concern for his patients. I am thankful he will be the one to deliver our children. He did the exam and at the end said all looked well and he thought we would have no problems with IVF and he believes that we will get pregnant through this process as well. That is two doctors that have basically given "gaurantees" so again, if this DOESN'T work...i will be a mess.
God, PLEASE, please, please bless us with a baby. Allow us to be parents and help my body to accept and carry the embryos and deliver healthy babies.
Dr Derosa is very confident to the point he almost comes across arrogant, but it was comforting knowing he is on the team, as it did reassure us that we have pretty high chances at success through IVF. At the same time, he was so confident that if this procedure does not work, I will be very disappointed and suprised at the failure.
Today met with my OB for the required Pap Smear before our procedure. I love Dr Stamps. He is so gentle, caring and encouraging. He takes the time to get to know the patient and shows true concern for his patients. I am thankful he will be the one to deliver our children. He did the exam and at the end said all looked well and he thought we would have no problems with IVF and he believes that we will get pregnant through this process as well. That is two doctors that have basically given "gaurantees" so again, if this DOESN'T work...i will be a mess.
God, PLEASE, please, please bless us with a baby. Allow us to be parents and help my body to accept and carry the embryos and deliver healthy babies.
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Less than a month
Tuesday was the one month mark until we start shots. I am anxious to mvoe forward, complete the process and have a baby to call our own. One thing is for sure, this child God blesses us with will be loved more than any other child could possibly know.
Still having problems with the BC pill. Started the spotting Sunday night and it has slowly gotten worse. Called our IVF doctor DAILY this week and finally today heard back that we are to continue as we are. don't change a thing. Previously they were considering doubling the dose to two pills a day due to the bleeding, but after a talk today with our IVF specialist, they have decided not to do that. Apparently they have had a few people that double up struggle with the stimulation meds working. So, we will see. Still trusting God is in control and will just take things one day at a time.
Feeling really emotional and unattractive lately. Got hair done this afternoon though and that really helped. Colored it espresso and it is so much shinier having it done professional!!! and got a cute bob due with front about 2 1/2 inches longer than in the back. i am starting to think i have had this cut for too long as i have had it for nearly a year now, but i figure since it is still the "in" cut, I am okay. at least i hope i am.
Still having problems with the BC pill. Started the spotting Sunday night and it has slowly gotten worse. Called our IVF doctor DAILY this week and finally today heard back that we are to continue as we are. don't change a thing. Previously they were considering doubling the dose to two pills a day due to the bleeding, but after a talk today with our IVF specialist, they have decided not to do that. Apparently they have had a few people that double up struggle with the stimulation meds working. So, we will see. Still trusting God is in control and will just take things one day at a time.
Feeling really emotional and unattractive lately. Got hair done this afternoon though and that really helped. Colored it espresso and it is so much shinier having it done professional!!! and got a cute bob due with front about 2 1/2 inches longer than in the back. i am starting to think i have had this cut for too long as i have had it for nearly a year now, but i figure since it is still the "in" cut, I am okay. at least i hope i am.
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Looking Up
So, things are looking up a bit. We went to St Louis Tuesday and can I just say I have the sweetest husband out there? It ws that time of the month where my cramps are so severe I can do nothing but curl in a ball and cry. Well, we had to leave springfield at 5 in the morning to get to our St Louis apt on time, and Kyle let me sleep the entire way up there, stopped once for me to use the restroom and didn't complain, and then the way back he let me sleep as well without complaining. A four hour drive there without anyone to talk to, then four hours back 15 minutes later is quite the drive without being able to blare your music to keep you awake or anything. It was really appreciated though.
Anyhow, we got to St Louis nearly an hour early, and they let us get in right away, did teh ultra sound in 15 minutes and then we were back on the road to gorgeous Springfield. Found out that I have 20 folicles on my right ovary, 8 on my left ovary. That is pretty great to have a total of 28 folicles. While that does not mean that I have 28 eggs, it does give us quite the large number to work with. So we are both pretty happy abut that and praying that with the stimulation drugs, the folicles will be large enough to remove and that we will have a large quantity of eggs to work with. Obviously the more eggs you have, the more you can fertilize and the more likely you are to get healthy embryos. We still have over a month before we start the stimulation drugs, but this week we were given a bit more hope, so we are looking up today.
Anyhow, we got to St Louis nearly an hour early, and they let us get in right away, did teh ultra sound in 15 minutes and then we were back on the road to gorgeous Springfield. Found out that I have 20 folicles on my right ovary, 8 on my left ovary. That is pretty great to have a total of 28 folicles. While that does not mean that I have 28 eggs, it does give us quite the large number to work with. So we are both pretty happy abut that and praying that with the stimulation drugs, the folicles will be large enough to remove and that we will have a large quantity of eggs to work with. Obviously the more eggs you have, the more you can fertilize and the more likely you are to get healthy embryos. We still have over a month before we start the stimulation drugs, but this week we were given a bit more hope, so we are looking up today.
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