Bad Weekend

Wow, it has been such a difficult weekend. Want to do nothing but crawl in a ball and cry ALL DAY LONG. McKenna's retching has gotten really bad again. Had improved a little for several weeks and then this weekend it went downhill and didn't seem to get any better. It has actually been getting worse the past week but then today it just got even worse. Her retching is worse, no improvement on eating and doing really bad on tummy time. SHe can't roll over, can't push up and just has to sit or lay there. It is really difficult to be happy or grateful for where she is at developmentally. Grateful that she has gotten better and truly improved from where she was at eleven months ago, but she is almost a year old and still can't do half the things a four or five month old can do. SO today I am going to sulk, and be depressed and allow myself to cry.

Have decided to keep her on her tummy all day long for a week. Starting today if she is awake she will be on her tummy. It is so depressing to see her just lay there while Keaton and I play, but maybe this will influence her to push up on her tummy? As for the retching I give up. NOt sure how to help her, what to do or what will make her better. Ignoring her retching doesn't help. Changing her position or feeding quantity or speed...none of it helps. SO yeah. again, just really discouraged today. Praying tomorrow will be better.